The People in our lives...

So, I have come to the conclusion that everyone comes into our lives for a reason. We have those people who come into our lives and change us for the better and stick with us through the good, bad and ugly, and we can only hope to hold onto them forever. Then we have those who come into our lives to teach us something about ourselves, and sometimes stay, and sometimes head out to help someone new. And lastly, and most certainly least in my book, are the ones that never should have lasted in our lives as long as they did. You know who I'm talking about, the "Friend" who slept with your boyfriend, the "ex" who has always had your number on speed dial at 4am when he's piss drunk and just wants to get his rocks off.... Yeah, you know who I'm talking about....In my life, I have had all of the above, and thankfully am blessed to say more of the first 2 than the last. By no means am I a saint or even remotely close, but I do pride myself in being a good friend, even if said person hasn't always been there for me. I tend to be brutally honest and on certain days can dish it out with the best of em' but not take it back, just one of my down falls I suppose. 

But that last category still has me a bit perplexed. I do have some of this people in my life and my question to myself more than any of you out there in blogland is this; why can't I walk away? I see that they don't have anything to offer me aside from instant gratification while present but as soon as they walk away, their actions completely negate their words. Yet, for some strange reason, I still hang on. 

I believe I have split personalities when it comes to my point of view on the world. I am an idealist living in a realist's mind. I try to see the good in most people and always give them the benefit of the doubt even when all other fingers point to guilty. And with other instances, I am as straight as an arrow, and no matter which way you slice it, it will end up with the same out come. Sadly, our environment is probably my best example of this. Although everyone has just recently decided to start to drive hybrids and recycle and really put an effort into saving out planet, I feel it's too late. We have started this ripple effect now and there will be many more years before we can even consider it coming to an end and until everyone has decided to change for the better, we will continue to have this ripple effect... Now that I have explained my theory on that, back to my original post....

Maybe that's why I can't walk away and let them go. Because I see the good in everyone, and although I can convince my head to walk away my heart says no. I guess you could say I get attached easily. I have had very important ppl ripped away from me far before it was their time, so I tend to cling to everyone who I love or even like as long as I can, in fear of not having them one day. 

So I guess with the coming of 2010 (holy shit, btw) I think it's time that I start to live my life for me and no one else, question is, how? I suppose all will be known in due time....

PS: None of the examples above are people from my life, just mere examples... :-)